The Ascent from Not
Spirit-Consciousness
Here, the Awareness of life from Key 3 somehow becomes aware of its own Awareness. Key 4 is a new reflection of the original Big Bang of the Universe exploding outward as the original Self. It is here at Key 4 that the Self is born into Being.
It is here that we first encounter the unending energy pouring forth from the Self - from "the here." Here we have no attachments to any of the layers beneath or above us. Here, we are only pure energy, flowing without pride - without guilt - without ego, memory or intellect. Here, we can embrace the beauty and magnificence which we are. Like the stars, we burn brightly and beautifully in the black of space, pouring forth into the World.
Ascent IV
Spirit-Consciousness
In this card we see an entire universe of a Self (each of us is an entire universe within a universe) in a meditative pose in the depths of the Sea of Self. At the very core of Self we see the blue eight-pointed star representing the inner-calm of Tranquillitas Animae which reigns in the otherwise uncontrollable and raging fires of the Self. Beneath the blue star we see the eight-pointed yellow star of Ardentis Animae which represents the burning fire within the Self. This raging fire is the pure and unadulterated Self, burning brightly with no regret or remorse and without the need to ask for permission to burn.
The core of the Self is the “awareness of its own awareness.” The Spirit-Consciousness is the impossible paradox of the flashlight that shines upon itself. This Key may also be thought of as what embodies the “inner child,” or the “divine spark,” sometimes called “the divinity within.”
In the top-left corner of this card is an AON symbol for Spirit-Consciousness indicating that Spirit-Consciousness is part of the Self Well. In fact, when it comes to plumbing the depths of the Self, Spirit-Consciousness is the bottom of the well! This is because the Self begins here.
Guided Meditation
Spirit-Consciousness
Spirit-Consciousness
I am, therefore I am.
The awareness of our own Awareness is a feedback loop - it is a self-referencing logic circle. We consider that we must exist as energy pouring forth from the wellspring of the Self, but then we ask the question, "What if this is not real? What if I am not really energy pouring forth?" And then we realize that we are the ones asking the question which is proof that we exist as energy pouring forth from the wellspring of the Self. If we were not extant, we could not consider the question. We are. Therefore, we are.